I'm really jealous that my others friends can just text her without having to consider the consequences. I'm really jealous that they can be casual and friendly and that I can't. That I'm so incredibly angry at her that there's no such thing as casual. And that even in the times I have tried to be casual she's thrown it back in my face. I'm jealous that she'll contact them and it's nothing but that I can't expect that ever again. I'm so angry that she was my best friend and that I trusted her in this and now I don't have my best friend or my partner (whatever that even meant). Everyone else has still has some kind of piece of her and she has a piece of them and I'm so jealous and angry that none of that can be said of us.